#93: Tremendous Pain
A cycle of expectations, roles, dreams and goals
I will be in tremendous pain for as long as I continue a cycle of failing to fulfill expectations, roles, dreams, and goals that are not inherently mine. How can I possibly expect to “feel good” when banging into a door that doesn’t fit me? Even if I succeed at getting in, it won't make much of an ultimate difference: the pain of not being me will return.
When I place an expectation upon myself, I corrupt my organic progress. I commit to a path of maximum resistance. The secret isn’t to work harder but rather to rid my mind of any expectations. I don’t need to be any certain way, because authentically, there is only one way I can be. That is the only way I should pursue, or rather give in to, for this way will be effortless, effective, and fulfilling.
An expectation is a strong belief that things should be this particular way. Yet how can I expect anything of myself when I haven’t asked: