#59: Rejected & Rejecting
Prejudiced nature of my pain
When I am rejected, I spend months parsing through my emotions. When I reject someone, I shrug my shoulders and continue my life. So my perception is extremely biased.
It’s natural to feel hurt, but I want to remind myself of the disproportionate sense of significance that I’m wired to attach to my emotions. Becoming deeply aware of this trait of human nature helps me take things less personally. Wouldn’t it be hypocritical to be offended at X when I acted the exact same way towards others?
Even if I have not acted this way yet, I leave room for experiencing and understanding this person in the future. Sure, I’m hurt, and that’s the only thing I can think of. I just need to consider the times when I was on the other side: I rejected, didn’t respond to texts, was inattentive, rude, etc. It’s not meant to deny my pain.