#169: Boundless Sadness
the faucet that will flood indefinitely
The times I am seriously sad reveal that sadness is boundless. Sadness about one thing is only a step away from digging through all the sad things in my life. Getting sad turns on the faucet that can flood indefinitely. Independent of the quality of my life, boundless sadness is an undeniable constant of human life. For I am doomed to eventually lose all my loved ones, die myself, and forever disappear from the face of this earth.
Therefore, I need to embrace the infinite nature of sadness. Once I understand how sadness works, I can stop waiting for my sadness to elapse on its own. The end will not come itself, nor will it be orchestrated by another person. Other people will not stop being selfish and adjust themselves to abort my sadness. They aren’t malicious, they are simply optimizing for themselves. So I tell myself:
You will drown in boundless sadness unless you turn the faucet off.